Just when things were looking up, too, the universe has to bring me down again.

We got moved into our new house, so that was good.

But then we had our checks stolen. So we could not pay the down payment. Nor get the utilities in our name. Absolutely peniless, we are.

And since we are peniless, we lost all of our stuff in storage. Everything we owned.

And since we did not have money to pay on our debit card, it is $800 in overdraft fees, and our check is only $600

so even when we get our checks on the 1st, we will still be peniless, because it's all going to that card. And then there's still $200 to pay on it.

If we do not find a way to get some money and pay our mortgage, we're gonna be homeless again.

We tried selling mom's power wheelchair, but no one will buy it. Not on ebay, not on craigslist, not in the paper... and that was our last option...

What the hell are we supposed to do...?

*stresssssss*

Happy Holidays, indeed. -__- *no money for a tree, for a turkey, for food in general as we eat out of cans*

Bleh. Why does nothing ever go right.

Maybe I should just throw my life away and pray I can get a low-class job cause at this rate...

After 3-4 years of no contact with the keyboard whatsoever, I have begun writing fanfiction.

But it's not cheesey mary-sue Digimon fanfiction as it was in my NOOB days.

IT'S DOCTOR WHO FANFICTION

specifically on his childhood days on Gallifrey <3

*DW obsession has reached new level*

My page here: [link]

I need money for food/furniture payment/life ;__;

So I am now taking commissions *laughs at the prospect that I will get any*

Prices: (all pics will be colored unless you insist on it remaining a sketch)

Sketch: $5
Colored: $5
Colored with background: $10

2 characters: add $3 to everything above, so:
Sketch: $8
Colored: $8
Colored with background: $13

Scenery with no characters: $10

Rules/Regulations:

1) Only one person per pic (will change this if enough people want more than one, but I can't draw more than two without my brain breaking), can be fanart or original. If it is fanart, just provide the name of the character/show they are from and I will look them up myself. If it is an original character, please provide a reference or detailed description of what they look like.

2) Please tell me what you want to be going on in the picture. Even if you just want them standing there. When given no details my mind just goes blank as to how to draw them and it's like "......."

3) I will draw from any fandom, but it will be drawn in my style, rather than trying to imitate the original style.

4) Blood is fine. I like drawing blood. :3 (Nothing too gorey though, like intestines spilling out, only because I have no clue how to draw intestines.)

5) If you really want two people, I will draw them kissing or snuggling or whatever, just nothing too graphic. I will draw het couples and BL but please no yuri please please please? *bricked*

6) No crack pairing is too much for me! even if it is shota/loli

7) Yes I will draw anthros

8) Yes I will draw Non-human characters

9) No I will not draw Twilight fan art (the one exception to rule #1)

10) Will do as many commissions as I am offered at this point, that includes multiple commissions from one person

11) I do not have a printer or scanner so any commissions will have to be viewed online publicly or privately depending on your preference.

Method of payment:

Paypal would be easiest (you can send a note asking for the information and stuff) but you can send cash in the mail if you do not have access to paypal (again please send note and I will give information) I'd really prefer paypal though if possible.

Ok.....I think that's all, if I failed to answer any questions, please let me know and I will edit this journal with them : 3

So I was sitting here reading my english assignment, and it was talking about what makes good stories, and good characters, and it got me thinking (for the hundredth time) about what to do about my character, Inai.

It struck me, I may have just set him up for failure.

The more I look at him from an outside, un-opinionated perspective, the more he seems to become the kind of character that I normally cant stand in any form of fiction. He is the kind of character that, when presented with any random situation, I could not tell you upfront how he would react, as I could easily do with any other of my characters.

My characters have roles in the story, as do most. The joker, the leader, the villian, the clown, the traitor, the protagonist and antagonist, ect. They all have their parts to play in tying the story together. And I realize, I have no idea where Inai falls into any of this. He's just...there.

What makes him just being...there, worse, is that he is an important character to the story. And he should not be important by just being...there, and having plot points revolve around him. He needs a reason. He needs a genuine role in the story. What is his role? I look back at the things he does in the story and I realize all he does is either cause problems for most of the other characters or get them out of bad situations, two things that totally contradict each other and make him more of a mary-sue, inconsistent. Totally inconsistent.

And on the note of inconsistent, his entire character is as such. I can tell you what traits he keeps no matter how I portray him; he is loyal, he is caring, he is intelligent. He is reserved, he makes a lot of bad decisions, and he is lonely. Lonely when he really has no reason to be, surrounded by people who would care about him if he'd just open his stupid eyes. Suck it up, princess. But none of these traits really stand out, and it bugs me. I can tell you Taveru is a coward, a BIG coward. Kaori is strong willed and loyal to her friends. Varren is a dumbass who has his heart in the right place, but does not always make the right decisions. Isaru is cool and collective, manipulating and intelligent, dark. All these are distinctive traits, and you know what I hate? Inai seems to have had all of them, on some level. He is just a combination of all my other characters, and I can't stand it.

I do not know how to fix this. I do not know how to make him a likeable character, a distinctive character. Maybe I'm just trying too hard, but if I do not fix this, he will not be an enjoyable character. He will be just another Mary-Sue, and I'm not okay with that. I am aware of how much he needs work, but the more I try, the more I fail...

throughout these years only one thing has seemed to remain consistent with him, and that is his loyalty to Isaru. Wheather Isaru is nice to him, or mean to him, or both, I haven't decided for sure yet. But through it all Inai has always been loyal to him...his only consistent trait. Is it possible to build on that? I'm not sure. The worst part is, is this loyalty even a good trait...?

I'm just so frustrated. I have to fix this. I don't know how.......................

So I heard they are going to remake/revamp the Secret of Nimh/Mrs. Frisby and the rats of NIMH

my first thought when I read the article heading? "ooooh this'll be exciting!"

and then it said it would most likely be done in CG.........

......

Ok, can I just say, I am...thoroughly, disappointed.

I do not have anything against CG itself, as I have said in the past countless times, I just wish there was balance.

What bugs me here is, I read the book, and I am a big fan of the original movie, and I worry, and wonder, how are they going to ruin this? or will they be able to live up to the franchise?

My main problem here, is the plot.

Countlessly throughout CG movies I have seen comedy. comedy, comedy, comedy, and no/very little moral fiber incorporated into them. I will say there are a few exceptions and for the most part I really enjoyed those movies. I love comedy, but I like something that can stimulate my mind as well.

My points is...

being a fan of the book and the movie, the plot of NIMH, leaves very little room for comedy. And if the producers plan on making this into a comedy, then they will completely, utterly, destroy the entire plot and purpose of the story. They would be stupid to do so.

Maybe they won't though. Maybe, just maybe, this time, things will be different. I still can hope that The Princess and the Frog will help to change things....but it's only hope. The animation industry has, in my opinion, taken a turn for the worst. There are things in CG that are not comparable to traditional animation, and vice versa. Where is the art? the movement? the music? the eye catchers? The wonder? when was the last time you watched a CG movie and felt artistically impressed and thought to yourself "wow"

I say though, I do not care if it turns out to be CG as long as the plot and moral stands firm.

I am not trying to say CG is not art. It is very artistic. I look at the detail in CG, the fine layouts and textures, and I know for a fact how much heart and soul and blood was put into it, but again I say, balance...

Now I have not been able to find much info on this remake or revamp, so everything I have said in this journal could be ungrounded and unjust, and this is simply my first impression of the situation. I hope it will do well, I will go and see it regardless. Props to them for having it be a theatrical release I will keep my hopes up, until that time we will see